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So I hung out with Tara Mason over the weekend and we created a new project for ourselves. It's going to be insanity!
Keep your eyes peeled on Buzznet and Youtube and any other site for it! Watch out world.. be excited!

CRAZY!

They never said life was easy... they just said it was worth it!

Well ladies and gentlemen it's April and in Toronto it's beautiful weather. It was only like two weeks ago when we had piles of snow. Now i'm wearing skirts and no coats outside. I'm sorry but the convienence of being able to walk out the door without having to worry about a coat, is awesome.

I love signing onto Buzznet everyday and seeing how many friend requests I have. I love it! Making new friends is awesome and just the fact of anyone wanting to be my friend on here is too cool!

This post isn't about much just thought I'd keep myself busy on a Wednesday morning. Thought I'd let you know what I've been up to.

To kick off the good weather Tara Mason and I had a BBQ pic-nic and a campfire on the beach. We were shooting pop cans with a BB Gun and she shot Corey in the arm. It was actually really funny but play safe kids!
There is nothing better than having a campfire and just hanging out. Who says you have to do anything to have fun. Just hanging out talking with friends is awesome fun that can be had anytime! And I think it was a much needed break from the real world .
After having fun with Tara Mason's phone we called one more person. And after hearing all the drama that goes down with these internet celebrities it makes me a little relieved not to have to deal with that. I'm not a dramatic girl. Which is probably why I'm not an internet celebrity. I know that alot of these girls are 25% more dramatic than they need to be because it boosts their popularity. I know that for a fact.
I'm happy being me and it makes me smile to see new people wanting to be my friend. I am no fake kids. All you will ever see, watch, and read is me. And if I have 300 friends or if i have 13 000, thats all I will ever be. Thats my word.

Anyways... I may be designing a piece for the fashion Tara Mason is launching her couture Killer Candy collection in. But my piece( if I get my ass in gear and do it) will be under Killer Candy. If you're in the area come out and come see the show and say Hi to Tara Mason and I. And if you're not in the area.. road trip!

So is anyone else out there a die-hard Scrubs or How I Met Your Mother fan.. cause right here! I don't watch anything else .. except when I'm craving the MTV rediculous reality shows. Share with me your favourite shows maybe I'll get into a new show.

I did a quick ity bity photoshoot this past weekend. I was doing the makeup for the artist and for a change I got to step in front of the camera. Sometimes I feel invisible behind the scenes all the time. It was a nice change.

More for you later!

Toria Dell'Anno

 

 

It's just one of those days that couldn't get any worse. You can't get your makeup right, nor your hair, you can't even figure out what to wear. You look at yourself and you think, "I'm hopeless".
We all have these days and sometimes in our life it's just the tip of the iceberg. You aren't getting along with your family, something is being complicated with your friends or you're ending a relationship. What do you do when you don't want to do anything anything anymore, you just want to sit there and be miserable. Because, well, that's what you are. Who do you turn to, when you feel you have no one?

So you're forced to turn to yourself. Forced to find a friend in yourself. This is arguably one of the toughest things to do. I mean you have all the friendly people on sites like dear ol' Buzznet, (those internet icons of yours) who offer advice to lifes problems( which I am always here to talk to ) which sometimes can be just what is needed.
But when you need thoughts from someone who knows you as a person and not just a member of Buzznet, it's you to the rescue.

Here is what I think;
The problem is that when you are "waiting to feel like it" you are waiting on the M word to strike in your life. The capital letter M word. What is it? What is the word starting with M that you are waiting on?

Motivation isn't the word. It is also not money or mood. It is not medication. It is not mother to make you do it.

The M word is Miracle. You are waiting on a miracle. Why is it a miracle? Because you want to sit there doing nothing until suddenly something from outside strikes you and fills you with energy, motivation, ambition, and desire and makes you want to go do it without you doing anything but sitting there. This is called waiting for a miracle. It is not the best plan for life. You don’t wait for a miracle. You must make the miracle.
Instead of sitting there after work because you're tired and don't feel like it, go on with your plans, or create them. It isn't going to get better if you stay at home. In fact, it just adds to your problems, you are tired and now you're miserable because you, (by your choice) lost your plans for the day/evening.
Next time go to the movie anyway. Do whatever you had planned. Allow the energy catch up with you. Act first. Energy and motivation will follow.

The next time you hear yourself saying, "I don’t feel like it" call a time out, remind yourself you are choosing to wait for a miracle. Choose to make the miracle instead. Act anyway. Do whatever it is whether you feel like it or not. Create your motivation. Raise your energy level.

In all honesty I am learning how to do this now myself. So if you are saying yes to this post, and are looking for someone to talk to and journey through it with you, then you are reading her journal!

Here is something else to think about;
Have you ever been comfortably miserable? Have you ever found yourself in a bad situation that you wished would just go away? It might be a relationship you are in or a crap job you have. You are unhappy and frustrated. You complain and complain about how terrible it is, but you don’t take action. You won’t change. You feel stuck and you are. You are caught in comfortable misery.

Like those old reliable shoes, you're in a situation you don't like but you're used to it. They are not attractive, but you keep wearing them out of habit. If you make a move, things could get better but they could also get alot worse. Better to just stay with what you have. Why take a chance?
It's this that holds us back. We are miserable but not miserable enough to change. Well, how miserable do you have to get before you make a change. Be realistic. Anticipate what might go wrong and be prepared for it. Acknowledge that you might be somewhat more uncomfortable as you go through the change process but be optimistic and expect that things will get improve.

This isn't a sugar coated post. Because for the record, I need this advice too.
Here is my vow to you: I swear that I will follow everything I am saying and prove it can work ( or prove otherwise).
I hope this helps in anyway.

All My Love,
Toria

P.S. It is time to fight for the best friend you will ever have- yourself.

So, I finished school. Tyring to get my name out there as a make-up artist so anyone who cares to help is awesome!
You'll see me constantly add more and more work I've done.
You can also see some work I did for Tara Mason on her buzznet and myspace..
www.taramason.buzznet.com

www.myspace.com/taramason

So keep supporting me and comment and buzz my work!

love!

I now have a countdown going untill I start school again.
I start October 17th at the School of Professional Make-up in Toronto. I will be going to school 9-5 every weekday. So just wait untill I take over the world as you know it!
I will be learning everything.. including airbrushing.
So get ready!
-Tors

So here I am, disobeying the orders of rest. Apparently everything went fine. It was recorded for the Scarborough Mirror. I had an awesome ,not bad on the eyes, male nurse who was a student observing with me aswell.


I am currently all colours of the rainbow and a little scared because I can see a slight difference in my nose already.

I arrived home today around 10 am. Had to stay the night in the hospital which, let me tell you, wasn't fun. Thankfully I had a TV and my MTV to watch. My parents left my room around 8:15 so after that I was alone. And the insomnia started. They took my I.V out and I was living on Tylenol 3's.
It was about 11:30 pm when the nurse gave me sleeping pills because I couldn't fall asleep. For some reason they didn't work until 4:30 am. Even then I was waking up every 30 minutes.

They was an old man across the hall who would constantly SCREAM things like "ow" and "help!"
And since I was in a semi-private room I had to deal with my foreign roomate who threw up and hoarked/spit louder than you could imagine- not to mention it was disgusting!

OH! let's back track a little to supper time. Now, my surgery wasn't untill 2pm  and I wasn't allowed to eat or DRINK anything past midnight the night before. So going into the hospital I hadn't ate or drank anything for a good 12 hours.
I get out of surgery and I'm still starving so as my parents are off grabbing themselves a bite to eat I ask if I can eat anything. My nurse says no, I can only drink.
Man did I ever just want to cry right there. But it turns out that was a missunderstanding . So 6:48 rolls around ( 3 hours since I've been out of surgery) and I'm in such a bad mood since I'm sooo hungry considering I haven't eaten anything in ,what, 19 hours or something.
So my dad finds out that  there was a "liquid" food tray ordered for me... Now where is this tray? They never made it. and the KITCHEN WAS CLOSED.
So my nurse had to run around and find food I could eat.

Anyways. I'm glad to be out of there. I must go and actually do some more resting!
-Toria

So getting a nose job tomorrow.

Not really scared. But I'll be on the computer more often than not!
No work for 2 and a half weeks... ain't bad...either than the whole no-money thing.

I'm bored now..can't wait till they don't let me go outside and play!
So leave me messages and comments and everything to keep me company!!

I'll tell you how it went when im conscious!!

Much Love!
Toria

Hey fellow Buzznet'ers,

So here I sit on a Thursday night surrounded by the only things around to keep me company. (sad truth).
- My infamous speaker: I used to pack this in my nap sack back in those highschool days and blast music from it. People knew me for it and alot thanked me. It is also the source of portible sound for my next love and this new computer which is without speakers.
-iPod: I'm pretty sure if you have one you will agree. And which most of us do, I have no need to explain. And for those who don't have one. . .get one! A good MP3 player works well too!
-My Cellular: If i'm not texting , it's a possibility I could die...I'm just sayin'!
- The computer?: Without it I'd be hella bored!
- My camera: ahh the item of technology that captures all the best moments and the videos I get to share with you folks. But don't be fooled , it isn't THAT great. It only allows me 30 secs of video's so those video-worthy moments must be less than 30 seconds.

The lover is off on tour and is not exactly a source of real company at the moment which is balls but I still love him and can't wait for him to come home!♥

 

Hey Toria♥ what are you plans for this weekend you ask?

Well, I have a good Friday little family thing to go to tomorrow.. being catholic and all. Saturday I'm getting my hair did. OH! Friday one of my lovers, Adaire, is sleeping over so stay tuned for videos from that. I hear a fort is in the makings for tomorrow evening! And Sunday is ... well any other Sunday for us this year.

What about all of you? Tell me about your easter plans!
Anyone dying eggs? I'll help!!

More to come soon!

My♥Paper♥Heart

Hey all you Buzznet'ers!
Thought I'd share my life with you!
Keep checking back to my profile for new stuff that happened. I'm going to do my best to keep this up.
Have myspace? Be my friend ! www.myspace.com/sugar_and_spikes
Or just be my friend anyways!

..I miss my Tara!

Love,
My♥Paper♥Heart